January 10, 2007
Effective February 1, 2007, I will cease posting to the Ex-Donkey Blog. No, IÂ’m not kidding.
Why, you might ask? Well, the reasons are many and IÂ’ve had a lot of time to reflect on them. ThatÂ’s why the title of this post is Â“The Long Goodbye.Â” IÂ’ve written it and rewritten it and tweaked it and rewritten it again for some time now, trying to express myself as accurately as possible without being overly sentimental. Also, the goodbye isnÂ’t final for another few weeks.
So, if you care to, sit back, grab your favorite adult beverage of choiceÂ…and read onÂ… The most obvious reason is that February 1, 2007 will mark my two-year blogoversary. And since IÂ’m so close to it, and since I have a thing for symmetry, and since it just feels rightÂ…that will be it. Though IÂ’m not ending this blog on a whim, I certainly began it that way. On February 1, 2005, I logged onto Blogger and took the three or four easy steps to get started and made my first post Â– an utterly dull and corny one at that. It reeks of newbie-ness and never fails to elicit an eye-roll whenever I go back to it.
I had no idea where I was going with this blog or what I would write about (though considering what I named it, I suspected politics would be a frequent topic). It seemed kind of a novelty at first but inside of a few weeks something happened. Â“The JuiceÂ” started flowing. By Â“the Juice,Â” I mean Inspiration. It was enjoyable and exciting and I found myself like a lab rat in a Skinner box going back to the PC to bang out on the keyboard anything that struck my fancy. I literally couldnÂ’t go a day without posting. Later that month, I took my oldest son on a father-son overnight trip to New Hampshire. The hotel had Internet access. Even several hundred miles from home I couldnÂ’t resist posting something. It was like an addiction. It was a little creepy, actually. But I couldnÂ’t fight it - because Â“the JuiceÂ” was flowing.
And that brings me to reason number two. IÂ’ve lost Â“the Juice,Â” that powerful urge to post whenever and wherever possible. Sometime last summer, I began to feel like blogging was a little burdensome. It gradually became less of a diversion and more of a responsibility. And IÂ’ve got plenty of responsibilities already. So I decided I needed a break. Not a couple of days, mind you - a nice long break during the dog days of August, including a week-long vacation with the family. I invited several blog friends to fill in for me for a few weeks, something for which I will always be grateful. During that time, I came to two realizations. First, I loved the time off. My fingers didnÂ’t miss the keyboard and I hardly ever thought about the blog because I had left it in capable hands. Second, every now and then I would check in to enjoy the stuff that my blog-sitters were posting. It dawned on me that the site was more interesting with me away from it than it had been before I took the break. It was a gentle reminder that after a year and half, I was often just Â“mailing it in.Â” My output by that point was beginning to reflect a lack of enthusiasm, and it showed. I thought that maybe returning to the weekly Â“Diane Lane Photo of the WeekÂ” feature might help. After all, she is pretty much my muse and I owe quite a bit of traffic to her. But it was about that time I got to thinking, how long would I continue doing this? Certainly it couldnÂ’t go on forever; it would have to come to an end at some point. And then it hit me that it wasnÂ’t a matter of Â“ifÂ” but Â“when.Â”
But the last reason is the most important in my mind. As many of you already know, I am the father of three wonderful sons. And all three of them have been diagnosed with some form of Autistic Spectrum Disorder. Admittedly, itÂ’s been a difficult situation, but the blog thing was always a good way for me to focus on something else once in a while. I never let it get in the way of spending time with or caring for my sons. But these days I realize that you can never spend too much time with your children. These years Â– especially considering their particular challenges Â– are precious. You never get them back. And every moment is an opportunity to help them realize their full potential as they grow and learn to deal with these special challenges. As important as this blog has been to me, my kids are a hundred times more so.
There was one last thing I wanted to follow through with, however. And that was seeing Joe Lieberman re-elected as my Senator in November. If there was anything, no matter how insignificant, that I could do to support him I wanted to do it. Yes, I certainly cared about all the other races as part of the bigger picture. But the Connecticut Senate race was the one that I deemed most important to me. In hindsight, once the first polls came out after Labor Day weekend it was probably a foregone conclusion that Lieberman would win. But I wanted to weigh in on that race whenever I could. I was really pleased that the final vote tally put the influence (or lack thereof) of the nutroots into perspective. Once the election was over, I felt drained. It wasnÂ’t the result but rather the whole build-up and aftermath that left me a little spent. I canÂ’t imagine going through all that again in 2008, with even bigger stakes on the line. One election cycle is enough for me. I look forward to leaving that to others to write about so I can read their stuff.
So where does that leave me? I donÂ’t see this as a complete departure from the blogosphere. Expect to see me leaving comments on other blogs Â– something I havenÂ’t done in a while. Maybe IÂ’ll be back at some point but in another form Â– kind of like when Gandalf the Grey came back as Gandalf the White, or something like that. Regardless, itÂ’s unlikely that I would return solo. IÂ’d be more interested in being part of a group blog or a partnership of some sort. Who knows? [UPDATE: New developments.]
I do want to take the opportunity to say Â“thank youÂ” to a few important people:
First, to Steve and Robbo, the Llama Butchers: mega-yips to my sponsors into Mu Nu and my rivals for the affections of a certain French news anchor. If there was one blog I was most inspired to emulate, it was yours.
To Georgia Girl/Starbuck, Â“The Editor,Â” who truly is my favorite sister-in-lawÂ…thanks for saving me from plenty of embarrassment by catching some key typos, usually right after I posted a long-winded tirade. And thank you for all your encouragement. You deserved more hat tips than I ever gave you credit for.
And to all the other supportive visitors over the last two years, thanks again. Shortly after February 1st, IÂ’ll be shutting down comments on the site. Tragically, all prior comments will not be visible, and for that, IÂ’m sorry. But I have no intention of spending the next few years playing Â“whack-a-moleÂ” with comment spam. Some of it is just so vile and I will not be party to boosting their Google rankings from all the embedded URLs they leave.
So thatÂ’s it. IÂ’ll keep posting for a while as the inspiration hits me. Then, like Frodo stepping on to the last white ship headed over the Sea, IÂ’ll take my leave. It will be bittersweet.
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